Receiving should be easy, right? It should come natural. After all, to survive in a group one must give and receive. Working together is how we evolved and "beat" the odds. Some people fall prey to rugged individualism and a Me vs. We society. Others, like myself, sometimes empty their inner-cup, unable to ask for or receive abundantly.
Being from a family where endless giving was the norm, my ability to receive is often hindered. When I first began booking massages, I incessantly talked to the masseur because I felt guilty. My brain knew I was paying for a service, but I had a fear of taking up space. I was raised with a strong work-ethic, being generous, contributing, and muscling through difficult things; relaxing in a receptive mode created a cognitive dissonance of sorts.
I've been exploring the underpinnings of my hesitation to receive freely. First noticing the feeling in my body when I'm offered help, or schedule a me-time activity. Questioning the inner voice that rushes to "no thanks,” or "should I,” and unlearning the habit of refusing help, and pushing away generosity. Finding my own balance in this equation has been a lifelong process, and continues still. In my fifth decade, I'm closing the gap, and moving toward a more sustainable give and take cycle that's congruent with the life I want to experience.
Being in a symbiotic relationship with Mindful Movement supporters has buoyed this journey. I'm fortunate to share space with you, show up in my vulnerabilities, and receive your trust.
May you receive abundantly this season,
Becky Widschwenter- Mindful Movement with Becky